Rumor Has It

     I have been thinking a lot today about rumors. I know I have heard plenty, shared more than I like to admit, and unfortunately, had a few spread about me. It is one thing if a rumor is actually true; it is quite another when people for whatever reason make up hurtful lies to tell others. 

     In my case, I dated a boy whose ex-girlfriend did not like that he had moved on, even though she had broken up with him some weeks before I met him. She started rumors about my virtue, which did not really seem to take off at first. Then, she found through a mutual friend, a boy that I had flirted with and kissed a year before. He and I had kissed on a few occasions, and there were some hands that brushed over the top of clothing that were swiftly batted away, but that was the extent of our encounters. He told a different story though. 

     My boyfriend at the time knew that the rumors were untrue, as did all of my high school boyfriends thereafter. However, there was one boy, whom I did not even know, had never spoken to, nor had even met, that took the rumors and ran with them. He harassed my boyfriend on a daily basis about them. It got to the point that my boyfriend just could not take it any longer. He changed schools and we broke up. We remained friends for years though. When I had surgery after high school graduation, he visited me every week, all summer long, until I had recuperated. Then he made good on his promise to take me to see a movie at the drive-in once I was better. 

     The rumors really only got to me for a couple of weeks during my freshman year.  Although I hadn't forgotten about them, they were not something I really thought about.  That was until I was in my early 20's.  I was dating someone else.  We lived in a small town, where even if you met someone new, within moments you could determine that you knew someone in common.  Either you went to school with their sister or cousin, or maybe your older brother did. In the case of my boyfriend, he went over to a friend's house where he met the boy I had kissed when I was in 8th grade.  Mr. 8th grade loser's story about our encounter had grown to epic proportions during the intervening years.  The result caused a monumental argument between us. Even though my boyfriend knew for a fact that the rumor was untrue, he was angry that I would have done anything that could have led to the exaggeration. 

     A few years ago, the rumor mill bit me again. I had a disagreement with a co-worker. I felt that she was taking advantage of me, and truly she was. Not only was she having me drive her daughter to scout meetings after work, but she had me baby sit her daughter when the child had been vomiting and should have stayed at home. She also kept a pet rat that I found repulsive, but still I ended up cleaning the cage and feeding him because he would have lived in filth and died of hunger if I did not. So, for the record, my beef with her was not unfounded and without merit. 

    She and I could have worked this out, and we did, eventually. It took several months, but she and I found a way to get past it and be friends again. What did not help though was that someone decided to stir the pot. Only a handful of people knew about our issues. One of them, I do not know which one, began whispering bilious and incendiary lies to her of things they claimed I had confided to them. Things like how I had said I was too good for my job, that I thought it was beneath me, and that I had always had a problem with authority. I never said that to anyone, nor did I feel that way. Those lies caused an even bigger rift in our relationship. To this day, I do not see what the person gained by their untruths or why they did it. 

     I was talking to a very sweet friend today. She is having trouble where she works because she made a mistake. It was not a huge mistake, but it was a mistake that started tongues wagging. She is embarrassed about it, but to make matters worse, people have taken this one little kernel and have shaken it in a pan over the stove. Now there is steaming bowl of lies swirling around about her.  The rumor mongers have called into question her past, and even worse, they have questioned her fitness as a mother. It is absolutely gut wrenching and awful. Why someone would do that to her and cause her so much pain and stress, I do not know. 

     Why do people do it? I know we live in an age of celebrity gossip constantly bombarding us via social media, but does that somehow make it acceptable to now ruin someone's reputation with rumors? Why blatantly and willfully make up lies? I don't get it. After hearing my friend's story, I felt remorse for every shred of gossip and rumor that I have repeated or shared with others. I have not made any up myself, but I have relayed gossip I have heard second, third, or fifth hand. I thought about how I felt when rumors were spread about me, and I just felt sick. I thought of Sr. Connie, my 10th grade religion teacher who used to tell us, "Before you speak, ask yourself: Is it kind? Is it true? Is it necessary?" 

     We all need to be kinder.  We need to speak the truth and not create hurtful lies. Anything else is just unnecessary. 

Heart Shaped Box

Today I made one of my desperation dinners.  You know, those dinners you make from what you have on hand rather than braving the weather and the crowds of weekend grocery shoppers.

The boy and I had gone to see The Jungle Book, with the intent of hitting the grocery store afterwards. When we left the theater, it was beginning to storm. As we drove past the store, we could see that the parking lot was packed, and cars were lined up against the curb while wet shoppers unloaded their carts. I did not want any part of the Sunday grocery madness. 

As we headed home, I began to mentally check off what ingredients I had on hand and what I could do with them. I finally settled on chicken and dumplings. I had chicken in the freezer and a quart of broth in the pantry.  Sigh of relief! I could avoid the dreaded weekend shopping trip!

While seasoning the broth, I used the last of my jar of thyme. I stared at the jar for a minute. I thought about whether I could reuse it. I wanted to reuse it. I wanted to keep it. I am not a hoarder; I swear I am not, but I have a thing for small containers. Jewelry boxes, small glass jars, decorative boxes, metal tins, like the kind tea, spices, and cocoa powder comes in, I love them all. I would like to keep them all, but I am not a hoarder. 

Let me say this again, I am not a hoarder. I just like little containers. I do throw them out, because like I said, I AM NOT A HOARDER. (I just want to make sure that I make that perfectly clear.) It pains me to throw them out. I feel bad about tossing them in the recycling bin, but I do it. I secretly want to keep them though. 

I suppose it is one of those leftovers from childhood. Compared to today's children who have a plethora of plastic playthings cluttering up the playroom floor, I had a nominal amount. We were not poor by any means, but kids in the 70's just did not have the number of toys that today's kids possess. My mom would often give me ordinary objects to use as toys.  I would get the plastic egg from her hose, or the cardboard insert from inside of a dress shirt to use for drawing. My favorite though, was any type of container because YOU COULD PUT STUFF IN IT! I know it seems silly, but I loved having a place to store my treasures. 

As an adult, my treasures are not the type of things that will fit inside a small box. They are kept close in my heart. My kids, my family, our home and pets, are what I hold dear. To me, nothing else matters. People may come and go throughout our lives. Our jobs and the house we live in may change, but what is housed in my heart will remain the same.